My Process

My paintings, drawings and sculptures come from somewhere around the area of my cervix instead of my brain. I force myself not to think about anything as I am creating. I call the process "working from the brainstem" and I find it to be cathartic in a way that nothing else offers. I often say to myself as I am painting "There are no mistakes, only opportunities for new directions."  I take this literally. Since I am allowing myself to work from the primal side of myself, I consider any spill of paint or incorrect cut to be the natural progression of where the animal side of me needed to go but the thinking side of me did not have the self-awareness to explore.

As my current work shows, I am going through some difficult personal times. I use my painting as the only way to purge some of my experiences. Some of my work is raw and primal. When I awaken at 2:00 in the morning, sit straight up in bed and am haunted by an image or thought that I can not force out of my brain, I stumble upstairs to my studio and I slam it onto canvas then I am able to rest. Some of my paintings take days to create and are intricate, lacy and beautiful. Some are created in a half hour and make the viewer want to vomit. My personal favorites are the ones that explode out of me rather than coming out in a trickle.  My art is about the process of creation as a means to expel my personal demons.